Vida de Fotógrafa

The end. It’s The end. It’s The end.

The years of hardship and constant apprehension, trials, and errors, more errors than anything else. I hope that following my development as a photographer, and during that process, of myself as a human being, has been just as interesting for those following this blog than it has been for me, since day one, to write it. But now I’m an architecture student at the FAU-USP, starting afresh, again, a new life. I’m not sure I will be able to come back to this blog, but today I face the end of an illusion, which is that I’d be able to graduate in architecture in record time while working as a photographer. Looking at the grid of classes, I’ll only have one free afternoon in the first semester, and then, toward the end of the course, none. On the second semester, the grid is already fully locked down. And that goes till year 4. So, I won’t be able to make my living as a photographer, and will focus all my energies in college.

And if that’s so, at least for now, it’s the end. Financially, I won’t miss it. The last publisher I worked with still owes me money. And still runs away at any mention of solving the debt. An amount, mind you, ridiculous to anyone, but I think they just don’t pay out of their principle of not paying for the sake of not paying someone who does what she loves.And the lack of profissionalism inside photography, which pushed me into architecture, also won’t be missed.

And my camera is still here. I’m not going to stop  being who I am, or a photographer. But that stops being my way of making a living. And I question myself if this blog should stay alive.

So, while in doubt, so long, see you soon, and watch the video as it explains everything I wanna say.

It was, if not a fun, at least an eventful ride.

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